sharing a poetic LIFELINE with the world

write-picI’ve fallen into a funk these last few weeks.  I  haven’t been writing or embroidering or doing other creative stuff.  I haven’t been doing any of my classwork.  I still haven’t finished the November PAD (poem-a-day) or much else for that matter.

A couple days ago there was a shooting in Newtown, Connecticut where many small children and some adults perished.  I don’t know whether to be angry at such violence or hopeful at the acts of heroism and compassion that I’ve heard about.  I just feel numb.

This mini mid-life crisis I’m going through isn’t the same as being blocked.  It has very little to do with the shooting and is my own experience.  It’s like driving in a fog where you can only see a couple of feet in front of you.

So what have I been doing?  I’ve been doing a little reading, “Finding Your Own North Star,” by Martha Beck and watching a few movies.  I’ve been doing a lot of thinking and ruminating.  None of this is productive and as an efficient Virgo I find this very distressing.

I recognize that these fallow or down periods can lead to better things. Sometimes what’s needed is a period of composting, of processing events and feelings.  Like the pauses in music or the space between words.  I went to choral concert last night (to get more in the holiday spirit) with my boyfriend.  We were going to visit afterwards, but then I realized, I have nothing to say. So I dropped him off at his house and went on my “merry” way.

Happy Holidays to all!

LOVE

Anne

 

“Make visible what, without you, might perhaps never have been seen.”
~Robert Bresson, French Film Director

 

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